I reject the groups of people who shared one dream and worked towards it together. I hate the idea of failing with a group, just to learn from the mistakes made and for us to try at it again. I do not do collectives, I have animosity towards the idea of it was meant to be. I cant stand the “ten years ago we were just a couple of friends who had the same passion and dreams for etc etc” I'm forced to capture lightning in a bottle, here, now, whoever. It is what I am. Stuck in what others would call desperation plays, always seeing no point but to go all in or not at all. All I know and will ever know is the Hail Mary pass.