My life's been an insane twist of ups and downs, mainly downs. Been so bad that depression became my happiness at some point, and being happy made me feel weird on the inside. I've found god and i'm workin on that as best as i can. i still cant stand 99% of people though, but hopefully that changes. I don't know what it's like to have a genuine real friend irl, never had one, always online. been physically alone for so long i'm starting to break, it hurts, i wanna hugged. i wanna be told that everything's gonna be alright, but i'll have to wait and see if that happens i guess. shut in a depressing box of an apartment living in a pretty hostile and insanely low IQ area, haven't gone outside for 2 years at the time of typing this 2/23/25. I really don't know what's gonna become of my life, my expectations are so low that nothing surprises me anymore.