It all started when I turned 18, it was a brisk spring day on the 12th of April. The wind blowing my hair and I looked longingly at the lush trees in the distance. The thoughts of sonder cross my mind as I begin to shake with fear. Will she ever come back? As my hand grips the entryway of my back patio I hear the chimes of my phone alarm. I had set it to remind myself to pray to god, I do this three to four times a day to ensure that I have healthy relationship with Jesus Christ. After I am done with my second prayer of the day I begin to scramble to get ready for my afternoon bible study. I grab my keys after putting on my grey sweater vest and head out the door. I begin to lock the door behind me but my hands are still shaking from the thoughts of earlier pondering. After fumbling the keys and finally locking the door behind me I get into my 2004 honda civic and make my way downtown. I find the closest parking spot to the church entrance and exit my car, excited for the daily bible study group.... I just hope she comes today.
As I walk through the bright white doors into the church I head down to the basement to where the bible group is held. As pure usual I am the first to arrive so I begin to set up chairs. As I reach for the first chair I hear the sounds of familiar heels clicking against the churches old tile floors. My mind races as I know that she has arrived. I try not to look in her direction but its as if she can tell that I am intimidated. I turn as if to put the chair in the first row farthest away from her but she walks right in front of me, making me stop dead in my tracks. I look up only briefly but its enough for me to see the tears enveloping her beautiful eyes. I quickly set down the chair and muster the courage to ask whats wrong. She begins to murmur before she stops herself. She falls to the tile floor onto her knees clutching my khaki pants as she falls. I fall with her bringing her head into my bosom, nestling her. I can feel each breath she takes as she sobs into me. After about 3 minutes she picks herself up and apologizes. I am stunned for this is the first time I have gotten a clear look at her face. It wasn't who I had originally thought it was my ex fiances twin sister Alexis. Although they look almost identical I can tell its her by the slight indentation in her lower cheek, marking where she had scraped and scarred it while running with us while we were younger.
"Its its its.." she begins to finally get the words through her jumbled thoughts but before she can finish I hear the echos sirens outside. " Sam, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." I rush outside leaving Alexis on a chair by the spare church pews. As I open the door the sunlight quickly engulfs my eyes flashing me, leaving my world black for only a second. As the thoughts of anxiety race through my mind I finally see why Alexis had been apologizing. I see the ambulance parked next to her 2007 Toyota Rav-4 and although I can only see a glimpse of her I know its her. Fiona sitting lifeless in the passenger seat of her sisters car. Needle still sticking out of her arm. I race to the car with thoughts of denial taking over my head space. I somehow beat the paramedics to her and open the door. I unbuckle her seat belt and try to drag her out of the car and onto the cemented ground. I gently take the needle out of her arm and inspect it. She had been back to her old ways of using duck tranquilizer that had been laced with fentanyl. I try to give her cpr but its to late. She had been lifeless for too long.
18 months later......


I haven't been able to return to church nor have I been able to cope with the loss that god had given me. The only hope that has been bestowed upon me was Nekopara Vol. 3. Opening this game gives me hope but more importantly it gives me a place to escape to. BetweenCocoa Nuts hijinks ands Cinnamon's quirky display of affection I can at least have momentary glimpses of happiness.

TLDR; My ex fiance OD'd and now I have a cat girl fetish 10/10 IGN- Bouncy kitty boobies make pp go brrrr